Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Adrenal Fatigue Healing Vlog: #1: Detox Blues, Ayahuasca, Healing as ...

An honest update from the adrenal fatigue healing trenches. I'm 9 months into the Nutritional Balancing Program and it's been a very difficult last few months as I am going through a serious heavy metal detox, extreme fatigue, depression, brain fog, gas, spaciness, dandruff, and emptiness. The good news is that I'm dumping heavy metals and parasites. Somehow I managed to pull it together enough to make this jumbled vlog (honestly I cheated and had a double Americano this morning) where I share a little about my adrenal fatigue and depression story and background, how I used the plant medicine Ayahuasca for healing depression and drug addictions, and then discuss how my debilitating adrenal fatigue has fueled a deep spiritual journey into the ultimate self inquiry, "Who am I?"

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Heavy detox brings me to a screeching halt...

Contraction. I woke up this morning thinking a sauna session might bring me some energy but it did the opposite. I laid back down after my 40 min sweat and ended up falling asleep for another 5 hours after already getting 10 hours of sleep last night. This body and mind are weak, so weak today that all I could do is sleep and lay in bed breathing, meditating, sleeping and practicing just being. No type of stimulation, not even music is enticing in this empty space of contraction and healing that pervades my existence for most of the day.

Over the past 3 weeks there's been a gradual increase of exhaustion and today was the pinnacle. Hopefully it won't get worse but who knows. The healing reaction started when I got rid of the parasite, that bastard Rope Worm that was in me for 10 friggin years! Oh what a glorious day that was. Truly a celebration and landmark for the dedication I've had to my healing process. And what I didn't realize was that it was also a signal that meant my body had enough energy to get rid of other things too, and more detox was on the horizon.

Previous to getting rid of the parasite I had been flying high for about a month with some of the most beautiful energy and inspiration I've ever experienced in my life. Feeling alive and passionate, I made 4 videos for youtube and added many pages to my website, met with friends, frolicked in nature and cooked amazing meals. I had conveniently forgotten what I had learned, that when you're on an Nutritional Balancing program, especially in the first couple of years, you can be sure that a rise in energy is to be followed by a detox. It's a common pattern that everyone goes through. It actually makes sense when you think about it. When a depleted body gets some energy, that energy will be prioritized by the body and used for some deep healing. And unfortunately these healing reactions or detoxes can go on for weeks or months, so all we can do is ride it out. Luckily my detox symptoms aren't too bad, other than fatigue it's been sore feet and slight headaches on occasion. Detox symptoms can get much worse as I've read about in the FB forums. I just sent my hair in for my 3rd test, hoping it shows some heavy metal dumping.

When I'm this exhausted, there's no resisting. I have no choice, I must stop, be still and let the body heal. The mind is shut down, trying to get anything done is a joke. Even attempting to text someone is a huge task. Whereas before I would be not only exhausted but also depressed that I was exhausted, now I surrender to this cycle with a little more grace, knowing that because I'm giving my body the nutrition and minerals it needs and doing the detox program that this exhaustion is actually a good thing and I can trust that I will be stronger when it's over.

I imagine my precious cells with little hard hats on, wiping the sweat from their brows as they work diligently to sweep away the heavy metals and toxins that are keeping my body/mind from functioning at a an optimal level. As I lay in bed, half awake, all I can do is honor them by placing my hand on my heart and the other one in my belly sending myself love, bringing in light and thanking my body for everything it does for me.

These phases of contraction are familiar to me after having lived with adrenal fatigue for so long. I know that with every contraction a beautiful expansion is also soon to come. It's taken me many years not to resist this fatigue, I no longer shove stimulants down my throat in an attempt to stay productive. Even though I know better by now, the same old tape plays in my head as I sleep the day away. It's funneling into me from a deeply conditioned collective consciousness. In a nutshell it says, "If you're not doing, you're not worthy!" This is BS and me healing my body and learning to just be is the best gift I can give this planet.

I'm so thankful and grateful that I am supported by the universe in this healing journey. Won't you join me in your journey back to radiant health? 


Friday, March 27, 2015

More Adventures in Coffee Enemas - 7 months on NB

I've been in Nutritional Balancing now for 7 months, wow how time flies. Honestly, I'm feeling better than ever! My heart is open and I'm full of love of life. I'm dancing more, socializing and getting back in touch with my creativity and passion. My Natural Body Detox with Nutritional Balancing website and business are growing and I'm having a lot of fun gathering and sharing this information.  I'm so excited to help people with this amazing science and I have no doubt that this is what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm so grateful!

I've noticed I can handle any social situation without even thinking about drinking or smoking because those things actually take me out of my natural high.

Of course I still go through phases of exhaustion when I'm having a detox. Usually they last about 2 or 3 days at most. My detox symptoms so far have been fatigue, headaches, sore feet, stinky sweat, sore hip flexors, tender breasts (more than just PMS) and I've also been having some lower back pain which I believe is associated with my Kundalini energy because whenever it hurts and I sit down to do silent meditation, my body begins to rock back and forth by itself.

Whenever I'm going through a heavy detox, I usually increase the Coffee Enemas to 3 or 4 per day using about 4 Tbslp of coffee. Most of the time this really helps because it clears out the toxins from my body. Occasionally no amount of coffee enemas are going to help with my adrenal fatigue and I just have to surrender and call it a day. Now that I know my fatigue is a sign that my body is getting rid of toxins, it's a little easier to surrender to it.

One day last week I woke up super exhausted and thought to myself "well I'm probably not going to get anything done today, I might as well relax." And instead of doing the coffee enema first thing in the morning, I just took it easy and slept in some more. Around 1pm in the afternoon I decided to give one a try and I'm so glad I did. I immediately felt better and by the 2nd one I felt like I was back to my energetic happy self again.

I love Coffee Enemas so much I made a couple How To Videos and posted them on youtube. If you want to show your love please hit the thumbs up to like the video and if you're really brave then make a comment.

PART 1: Coffee Enema Recipe
This is the basic coffee enema recipe where you boil the coffee for 13 minutes to allow all the nutrients and active ingredients to leech into the water. 

PART 2: Putting the Coffee Enema in your Bum!
Here's where I demonstrate how to use the enema bag, setting up a place for your enema, what to do during the enema and how to clean up after you're done. 

Don't be shy, give it a try!
Thanks for joining me on your journey back to Radiant Health!