Anger Management Activities that Work

I want to share with you one of my favorite free anger management activities that actually works. It's called Fists of Anger and it only takes 3 minutes. It works powerfully to transform anger, anxiety, frustration and grief into tranquility.

This morning I woke up super tired again (it's been about 3 weeks of this) with a detox headache. Over the course of the morning I could feel some strong emotions bubbling to the surface. With my 2nd coffee enema, I asked the spirits of the water and coffee plant for help releasing what was no longer serving me. It seemed to have worked because when I got in the shower, a spontaneous scream came out of my mouth and I started to cry pretty hard. It was a huge release and it felt good to let it go. There's been a lot of emotion around feeling like my throat chakra is blocked and I can't express myself the way I want to. 

After the shower I immediately sat down on my yoga mat to do fists of anger. In the middle of it I got up and grabbed my computer inspired to make this video. I hope this free anger management technique helps you as much has it has helped me. Keep an open mind and get into it, you won't be disappointed!

Kundalini yoga has been an incredible healing tool for me. It works to clear out the subconscious patterns that keep us stuck in negative thinking and habits that don't serve us. If you're suffering from depression, stress, anxiety, or just feel stuck, you may want to check out his powerful tool. 

For the best Kundalini yoga classes, check out my teacher Jai Dev Singh's online academy. It's only $1 to try for the 1st month. 

Kundalini Yoga is the science, art and technology that enables one to access and utilize his or her own creative power for elevation of consciousness, healing and other purposes beyond reproduction.

1st Step to True Healing

You may ask.,"How long will I need to be on this (thyroid, hormone, blood-pressure, anti depressant) medication doctor?"

and the Doctor will say, "Well, it's possible you'll need to take it for the rest of your life."

This is your sign to run away as fast as possible and find a new doctor or go to your nearest Nutritional Balancing practitioner. The human body is capable of healing itself when you give it what it needs and anyone who thinks otherwise is simply brainwashed and living in the old paradigm.

The 1st step needed to activate this self healing mechanism is your active participation and heart felt intention to make the necessary changes; emotional, physical and spiritual. Admit that you're willing to change, get on your knees and pray for guidance, and trust you will be lead to the people and things that will help heal you.

There's no such thing as a magic pill, a treatment, or an experience that will completely heal you 100% so you can get back to your "normal" routine. Your health crisis is designed to completely change your whole perspective on life. I had to learn this the hard way. It's been 6 years since I started down this road to true happiness and vitality and I'm finally understanding that the journey is never really going to end. As frustrated as it becomes, I'll be forever grateful for this adrenal fatigue for slowing me down enough to turn within. It'd be nice to have more energy and I will but the point is when I'm slowed down I have to face myself and my fears and this is where the greatest growth has happened.

The sooner we can grasp that our healing journey IS our purpose and that healing won't happen overnight, the more we can relax into each day and accept it as it comes, knowing that we are being divinely guided towards more wisdom, true joy, radiant health and inner happiness.

Surrender, Trust, and Love are the big 3 ingredients needed to heal our spirit before any technique, supplement, medicine or therapy can heal our bodies.

Inhale Love, Exhale Relax.
The mantra of a this Adrenal Fatigue Warrior

Adrenal Fatigue Healing Vlog: #1: Detox Blues, Ayahuasca, Healing as ...

An honest update from the adrenal fatigue healing trenches. I'm 9 months into the Nutritional Balancing Program and it's been a very difficult last few months as I am going through a serious heavy metal detox, extreme fatigue, depression, brain fog, gas, spaciness, dandruff, and emptiness. The good news is that I'm dumping heavy metals and parasites. Somehow I managed to pull it together enough to make this jumbled vlog (honestly I cheated and had a double Americano this morning) where I share a little about my adrenal fatigue and depression story and background, how I used the plant medicine Ayahuasca for healing depression and drug addictions, and then discuss how my debilitating adrenal fatigue has fueled a deep spiritual journey into the ultimate self inquiry, "Who am I?"

Heavy detox brings me to a screeching halt...

Contraction. I woke up this morning thinking a sauna session might bring me some energy but it did the opposite. I laid back down after my 40 min sweat and ended up falling asleep for another 5 hours after already getting 10 hours of sleep last night. This body and mind are weak, so weak today that all I could do is sleep and lay in bed breathing, meditating, sleeping and practicing just being. No type of stimulation, not even music is enticing in this empty space of contraction and healing that pervades my existence for most of the day.

Over the past 3 weeks there's been a gradual increase of exhaustion and today was the pinnacle. Hopefully it won't get worse but who knows. The healing reaction started when I got rid of the parasite, that bastard Rope Worm that was in me for 10 friggin years! Oh what a glorious day that was. Truly a celebration and landmark for the dedication I've had to my healing process. And what I didn't realize was that it was also a signal that meant my body had enough energy to get rid of other things too, and more detox was on the horizon.

Previous to getting rid of the parasite I had been flying high for about a month with some of the most beautiful energy and inspiration I've ever experienced in my life. Feeling alive and passionate, I made 4 videos for youtube and added many pages to my website, met with friends, frolicked in nature and cooked amazing meals. I had conveniently forgotten what I had learned, that when you're on an Nutritional Balancing program, especially in the first couple of years, you can be sure that a rise in energy is to be followed by a detox. It's a common pattern that everyone goes through. It actually makes sense when you think about it. When a depleted body gets some energy, that energy will be prioritized by the body and used for some deep healing. And unfortunately these healing reactions or detoxes can go on for weeks or months, so all we can do is ride it out. Luckily my detox symptoms aren't too bad, other than fatigue it's been sore feet and slight headaches on occasion. Detox symptoms can get much worse as I've read about in the FB forums. I just sent my hair in for my 3rd test, hoping it shows some heavy metal dumping.

When I'm this exhausted, there's no resisting. I have no choice, I must stop, be still and let the body heal. The mind is shut down, trying to get anything done is a joke. Even attempting to text someone is a huge task. Whereas before I would be not only exhausted but also depressed that I was exhausted, now I surrender to this cycle with a little more grace, knowing that because I'm giving my body the nutrition and minerals it needs and doing the detox program that this exhaustion is actually a good thing and I can trust that I will be stronger when it's over.

I imagine my precious cells with little hard hats on, wiping the sweat from their brows as they work diligently to sweep away the heavy metals and toxins that are keeping my body/mind from functioning at a an optimal level. As I lay in bed, half awake, all I can do is honor them by placing my hand on my heart and the other one in my belly sending myself love, bringing in light and thanking my body for everything it does for me.

These phases of contraction are familiar to me after having lived with adrenal fatigue for so long. I know that with every contraction a beautiful expansion is also soon to come. It's taken me many years not to resist this fatigue, I no longer shove stimulants down my throat in an attempt to stay productive. Even though I know better by now, the same old tape plays in my head as I sleep the day away. It's funneling into me from a deeply conditioned collective consciousness. In a nutshell it says, "If you're not doing, you're not worthy!" This is BS and me healing my body and learning to just be is the best gift I can give this planet.

I'm so thankful and grateful that I am supported by the universe in this healing journey. Won't you join me in your journey back to radiant health? 

Love,
T

More Adventures in Coffee Enemas - 7 months on NB

I've been in Nutritional Balancing now for 7 months, wow how time flies. Honestly, I'm feeling better than ever! My heart is open and I'm full of love of life. I'm dancing more, socializing and getting back in touch with my creativity and passion. My Natural Body Detox with Nutritional Balancing website and business are growing and I'm having a lot of fun gathering and sharing this information.  I'm so excited to help people with this amazing science and I have no doubt that this is what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm so grateful!

I've noticed I can handle any social situation without even thinking about drinking or smoking because those things actually take me out of my natural high.

Of course I still go through phases of exhaustion when I'm having a detox. Usually they last about 2 or 3 days at most. My detox symptoms so far have been fatigue, headaches, sore feet, stinky sweat, sore hip flexors, tender breasts (more than just PMS) and I've also been having some lower back pain which I believe is associated with my Kundalini energy because whenever it hurts and I sit down to do silent meditation, my body begins to rock back and forth by itself.

Whenever I'm going through a heavy detox, I usually increase the Coffee Enemas to 3 or 4 per day using about 4 Tbslp of coffee. Most of the time this really helps because it clears out the toxins from my body. Occasionally no amount of coffee enemas are going to help with my adrenal fatigue and I just have to surrender and call it a day. Now that I know my fatigue is a sign that my body is getting rid of toxins, it's a little easier to surrender to it.

One day last week I woke up super exhausted and thought to myself "well I'm probably not going to get anything done today, I might as well relax." And instead of doing the coffee enema first thing in the morning, I just took it easy and slept in some more. Around 1pm in the afternoon I decided to give one a try and I'm so glad I did. I immediately felt better and by the 2nd one I felt like I was back to my energetic happy self again.

I love Coffee Enemas so much I made a couple How To Videos and posted them on youtube. If you want to show your love please hit the thumbs up to like the video and if you're really brave then make a comment.

PART 1: Coffee Enema Recipe

This is the basic coffee enema recipe where you boil the coffee for 13 minutes to allow all the nutrients and active ingredients to leech into the water. 

PART 2: Putting the Coffee Enema in your Bum!

Here's where I demonstrate how to use the enema bag, setting up a place for your enema, what to do during the enema and how to clean up after you're done. 

Don't be shy, give it a try!
Thanks for joining me on your journey back to Radiant Health! 

Coffee Addiction - The Cycle Ends Once Again

This coffee addiction is like the beloved blankie I couldn't part with until I was 13 years old. I loved that blankie so much, it comforted me through my childhood in many ways. At 13, I knew I'd outgrown it but for some reason I just couldn't let it go. Finally one day after building up the courage over many weeks, I acted in bold defiance against the part of myself that wouldn't grow up and I let it go. On the next trash day, I marched out to the curb and threw that blankie in the trash can. With sadness in my heart, I watched my treasured friend get dumped over the side of the truck, getting lost within the rest of people's inconsequential trash. Sure I missed it for awhile, especially at night, but I felt better knowing I had successfully made that right of passage from being a kid to being a teenager.

Today my Coffee Addiction got thrown in the trash.

I woke up a few days ago with a distinct taste of disdain on my tongue and a heavy fatigue throughout my entire body. It's a stage in the cycle of coffee addiction I know quite well after having been through it many times now. After I quitting for 3 months back in July, I started drinking a small cup of 1/2 decaf 1/2 regular again in October after hearing that it was okay on the NB program because coffee is yang. Ideally, Dr. Wilson says not to drink it because overall it is bad for our body, but he said if you have to have one cup you can.

But my mind only heard the first part, that it was okay to have some, and used that as an excuse to go back on it even though I knew with every cell in my being that my adrenals won't heal as quickly if I am drinking it. The self sabotaging part of me is incredibly powerful. I am truly amazed.

Despite my disdain a few days ago, I watched myself get up and make a cup of even stronger coffee than I had been drinking, I actually had 2 cups of it and then buzzed through a blog post and finally ate some food around 10:30am. Of course it felt good to be wired and energized, but this false energy went away and a heavier fatigue set in after the buzz wore off.

After a couple more days of drinking even stronger and stronger doses, 2 days of having a double Americano instead of just brewed at home, my body finally had enough and I was fatigued pretty much all day yesterday. That was the final draw, if I am to have the energy to help people with NB and do all the things I want to do with my website, this addiction has got to stop.

To be fair to myself, it is my last major unhealthy addiction in my life. This is why I'm not beating myself up too much. Getting rid of addictions takes time and patience. I got rid of my addictions to pills, pot, ciggs and alcohol over a 5 year period which I am very proud of. As far as the sugar drug goes, thanks to NB I don't actually have sugar cravings that often anymore and when I do, 1 little piece of chocolate is enough to satisfy. So this coffee is the last drug I use in my life that really gives me a distinct change of state, allows me to escape any discomfort of being tired, and makes me feel really good for awhile.

The thing is that now since I'm doing the Nutritional Balancing , I actually don't need it, overall I feel great and I actually have natural sustained energy a lot of the time. So the coffee drinking is defeating the purpose of this NB program because it's slowing down my healing. In the long run, I am wasting my money if I keep up this addiction because I'll have to keep buying the supplements longer to heal.

So last night, it was decided. I texted my friend who knows all about my coffee addiction and how I want to quit and I said if I drank coffee I would have to give him $25 every time I had some for the whole week. And to my delight, this morning I actually woke up feeling good, brewed some coffee for an enema and did that instead of drinking it. It gave me just the right amount of energy and right after I had some breakfast. This will be my new morning ritual.

I'll have to deal with the discomfort of being tired when those times come; with rest, infrared saunas and coffee enemas. Learning how not to resist being tired is an art and I will be working on it. I'm so grateful that life is supporting me in my healing journey. I'll be prioritizing this time I have to free myself from this final addiction. It's become clear that when I put my health first, everything else falls in place. Life force energy is one of the main ingredients for true happiness in life and I'm determined to reclaim mine.

Astrology note: Today the Sun conjunct Saturn in Scorpio in my 4th house of emotional security.

9 week Update - Sardines, Saunas, Syncing with the Moon and Using Reflexology

Is it strange that my idea of fun is building a sauna in my bathroom and seeing how much I can sweat? Well, that's what I consider fun these days. Whohoo!

I'm going on the 9th week of the NB program and overall I'm feeling so much better than before I started. There are definitely some days where I'm tired but it isn't nearly as severe as it was before I changed my diet and started the supplements. There is much less resistance when I do have tired days because I now have the awareness that my body and adrenals need to be in resting mode in order to heal. As I look back through my journals before I started this program I notice the crash pattern was much more severe than it is now and I never had days of sustained energy throughout the entire day like I do now. Before, I would have a few days of good energy and then up to a week of major fatigue. Now I have many days of good energy and then a couple days of fatigue but it isn't extreme. I have been working a few days a week doing some light manual labor (basically sitting down in a chair and using scissors to trim plants) and I have been able to go all day for a couple days without getting tired and this is huge progress!

My cravings for sugar and carbs are almost completely gone. I have been having gluten free waffles and gluten free toast with butter a few times a week for when I do crave carbs. I also have a little bit of raw sugar in my coffee in the morning. After dinner I usually get a slight sweet tooth but nothing like before I started the program. And I can definitely resist it most often. Occasionally I'll have a bite of sugar free chocolate but mostly I can get through the night without having any sweets. It took me a minute to realize this as I was writing this post but this is also huge progress! Wow I'm amazed at this myself.

There has been a constant slight body odor coming out of me and constant soreness in my hip flexor area. I see these things as positive because it means I am detoxing. I've been doing coffee enemas about 4 times a week and now I've started a sauna routine (see next post) in my bathroom in the evenings. Also, my feet are sore and I've been doing some foot reflexology. My feet have been sore in the duodenum and kidney areas. Rubbing these areas feels really good. If you push on your feet and you're sore in a specific area, you can use this chart to find out what part of the body it corresponds to.

My challenges remain the coffee addiction and eating more cooked veggies. I have been waking up tired and of course coffee is the first thing I think of. I just watched this podcast about Adrenal Fatigue and Pam Kileen talked about how drinking coffee won't allow the adrenals to heal. Duh! I totally know this instinctually but it's a powerful addiction that just won't let go. It makes perfect common sense and I really don't understand why Dr. Wilson and my practitioner told me 1 cup of coffee a day is okay when I'm in a four lows pattern. My mind used that as an excuse to start back up and now here I am back in the addiction. The reason they say this is because coffee is yang but I don't think that means it's good for everyone, especially people who's adrenal's are shot. 

Staying in witness consciousness watching myself play out the addiction loop once again. The difference this time is that I'm not beating myself up about it, I trust in the process. I also don't crave it later in the day like I used to, it's just in the morning. I'm holding the vision of my life without coffee strong in my mind and I know I'll be able to get there once again. My ideal routine is to wake up and do a sadhna practice first thing,  then after that I want to eat breakfast and do a Coffee Enema. Right now I am drinking coffee first thing and then eating breakfast and then meditation with a coffee enema.

In January I'll be going to a 12 day Ayahuasca retreat at the Temple of the Way of Light. This will be just the thing to get me back on a more healthy routine. In order to prepare for the trip, you have to cut out coffee, sugar, salt, pork, sex and masturbation and a few other things for a week or two. When I come back I will be caffeine free once and for all. In the meantime, I'm enjoying this damn coffee!

I finally tried Sardines and they're actually pretty good. Dr. Wilson has this great article about why Sardines are one of the best foods you can eat today. They're packed with Vitamin D, Omega 3s and Selenium, protein, and minerals. Selenium is a very important mineral which is crucial for our mental and spiritual development. I made a Sardine salad (which is kind of like tuna salad) that was recommended to me on FB. I ate it with blue chips and it was a delicious and filling snack.

Oh and I'm all synced up with the moon already. Cool! Last month the blood moon caused my period to come early and come super heavy. This month it synced me up with the full moon. This is a common benefit of being on the program for women.

On November 6th, the full moon in Taurus in my 10th house of career indicated a culmination of something. Well I finished my NB Practitioner's training exactly on that day and sent in my tests to Dr. Wilson. As long as I got 90% on all three tests, I'll be getting my diploma in about 2 weeks! Then I'll be paired up with an seasoned practitioner as a mentor for my advanced training. I'm so excited to start helping my friends and family get hair tests and start on a program. I already have at least 10 people interested. I have so much to learn about NB science, analyzing hair tests, and running a business and I'm ready for the challenge. Whohoo!