Letting go of Bad Habits and Making Drastic Changes

A few nights ago I dreamt that someone was trying to slit my throat. I was on a date with a guy from my past who was wasted and wanted to make out with me in the car. When I didn't want to make out with him, he took out a razor and tried to cut my throat. I ran from the car and escaped.

Yes, violent dreams can be a detox symptom of being on a Nutritional Balancing program. But a friend inspired me to look a little deeper and I'm glad I did. The dream interpretation of getting killed in a dream says; "The dream of being killed refers to drastic changes you are trying to make. There is a characteristic that you want to get rid of, a habit that you want to end within yourself. Alternatively, the dream represents feelings of being let down, feeling overwhelmed, shocked and disappointed."

Yes, I'm feeling overwhelmingly let down by our government, medical system and the general malaise of the population around what's considered normal eating habits. I'm trying to kill the habit of going with the grain, the conditioned mentality that says "oh don't worry, one donut/bagel/burger/candy bar/etc won't kill you" or "just relax, loosen up, have a beer." Well that's the mentality that got me to adrenal burnout and depression in the first place. This way of thinking is so pervasive, so sticky in the collective consciousness and that's exactly how our corrupted government wants it. They want to keep making money by keeping people sick, fat and medicated. Is it a secret anymore? They've got most of the population right where they want them; easily entertained, addicted to crap, numbed with anti depressants, distracted by trying to make enough money to survive, exhausted and getting sicker by the day.

I'm killing the habit of tolerating any BS in my life. The sweet complacent yes girl I used to be is dying. The warrior of light is waking up in her place. The substances and people who used to bring me comfort yet kept me stuck in a downward spiral no longer have the grip on me that they used to. And I'm empowered to keep going on this Nutritional Balancing path by the new energy I have. I'm coming alive, connecting more with my body and my values and becoming passionate about life again. Dreams and goals (besides getting healthy) actually feel graspable for the first time in forever. Just a year ago, my self esteem and energy was so low that I thought I'd never be able to accomplish anything. Well finally that phase is over.

For many years, I was stuck in the Maia, the illusion that I was separate from everything and everyone, and that what I did or didn't do really didn't make a difference. It was a deep, dark existential hole that I chose to dive into and explore. On top of that I was addicted to crap and my brain fog became so heavy at times I didn't really care about anything besides getting high and getting through the day. Guilt, shame, anger, addiction, and low self esteem clouded my view. I thought everyone was mad at me and was extremely judgmental of others. I didn't think I had anything to offer the world. Clawing my way out of that miserable hole took many years.

Now I see that one of the main reasons I had such a hard time escaping this mental state was because I was severely nutritionally depleted. I sense this is the case for many people these days who are living like zombies, lacking any real joy in their life. Many are just stuck in the familiar loop; work, consume, get entertained, numb out the pain, and do it again. Many don't have the energy to care or the awareness to know there is another way. There's an incredible fear permeating the air.

Well I'm not stuck anymore and now that I'm out of the mud, I see that my thoughts, actions, and words actually do impact the world around me and I know I can make that impact a positive one. I will shake people out of their haze, or perhaps I won't, either way is perfect.

The truth is that ultimately everything and everyone is perfectly right on track. The world is unfolding exactly as it should be. There is an unshakable peace in this ground of knowing that all is well. And at the same time on a relative level, this moment in this human form is as real as it gets. We can't escape ourselves, no matter how hard we try. Our perception of this moment is influenced by what we consume and what we consume in turn influences what kind of frequency we put out. That frequency can be one of love or it can be one of fear. The fear in me is dying and now my choice is clear, I'm choosing to trust and vibrate love.

This body and mind are a treasure, and if we treat it as such, we can uncover and explore it's true gifts. It's not an easy road to be a warrior of light, to free ourselves from our addictions and attachments. However, when we choose the path of light and fight for it despite all odds, we begin to connect with the subtle and innate beauty of life, we begin to shine the light of God/Spirit. This connection cultivates an inner joy that can't be taken away by any circumstance or person. And that joy is really all you need.

Personally I choose to fight against the malaise but treating my body with love. I'm interested in revealing my potential, living an incredible life, feeling great naturally and hopefully by writing about it I'm inspiring others to do the same. The journey to radiant health won't be an easy one, but I think it will be well worth it.

(P.S. This is what Mars in Sagittarius in my 5th house sounds like.)

I Watched Fed Up and I'm all Fired Up!

If you haven't watched it yet, I'd like to urge all my friends, FB acquaintances, family and anyone reading this to watch the documentary Fed Up and share it with your friends and family. If you have children in public schools it's even more important. The documentary is currently streaming free on Putlocker. I've summarized it here if you don't have time.

It is widely known amongst the medical field that too much sugar has been proven to not only make us fat, it also wreaks havoc on our liver, mucks up our metabolism, impairs brain function, and may leave us susceptible to heart disease, diabetes, and cancer. ("Your Brain on Sugar") 

The government has a lot of propaganda out about what we need to do about the alarming rate of obesity in our country. It's telling us to use our willpower, exercise more and eat less calories. Yet the very same people are allowing the processed food industry, which puts sugar in everything, to infiltrate our grocery stores and schools. Sugar is the one of the most addictive substances known to man.

• In a lab study, cocaine addicted rats were given a choice of either sugar water or more cocaine. Once they tasted the sugar water, 40 out of 43 rats chose the sugar water every time they entered the cage. 

Our government is supporting the obesity epidemic in our country by allowing unsafe amounts of sugar to go in nearly every product in grocery stores.

• There are 600,000 items for purchase in a typical big chain grocery store, 80% of them have added sugar

Everywhere we go we are bombarded by advertising that triggers our brain to crave junk and fast food and it's making it virtually impossible for people to get off the sugar train. You should be outraged as we are being attacked by extremely powerful forces that make up the major food suppliers of this country. Our country is sick, diseased, exhausted, dumbed down and complacent due to our sugar consumption.

• 1 in 5 children in America are overweight today
• in 1980 - Zero Adolescents had Type 2 Diabetes
• in 2010 - 57,600 Adolescents had Type 2 Diabetes which used to be called Adult onset diabetes.
• At the rate we're going, 95% of Americans will be overweight in 2 decades
• By 2050, 1 in 3 Americans will have diabetes. 

Where this all started? Back in 1977 - The McGovern Report, after reviewing a study senator McGovern warned that obesity would be a major concern if the food industry kept going the same way it was. The Sugar, Fat, Dairy, and Meat industries all banned together and lobbied against releasing this report. Instead they encouraged Americans to buy lower fat food.  But when you take the fat out of food it makes it taste bad, so they started adding sugar! The low-fat industry was born and our intake of sugar was on the rise.

• So from 1977-2000 - American's have doubled their intake of sugar
• There are 257 different names that food companies use for sugar. The body absorbs all of them the same way, secreting more insulin which converts into fat. So whether it's agave, cane sugar, raw sugar, it's all addictive and harmful if consumed over 6 teaspoons per day

• In 2002 the World Health Organization which sets global health standards put out a report (TRS916) that said sugar is a major if not the cause of chronic metabolic disease and obesity in the world. They were going to reduce the recommend daily intake of sugar to 10% of calories, which is about 6 tsp.
• However Sugar lobbyists got together and threatened Tommy Thompson, then the secretary of the WHO, that they (the Sugar industry) would withhold their contribution of $406 million dollars if the WHO published that report.
• The sugar industry got their way and instead the WHO recommended the daily intake of sugar to be 25% of total calories.
• The average American diet consists of 20-45 teaspoons of sugar/day.

• The Let's Move Campaign by Michelle Obama was a good effort on her part to get healthier food to our children. The processed food corporations began to panic and instead of fighting her they joined her. The deal they signed was they had to change the recipes instead of removing harmful ones or adding good ones. They basically got away with re-engineering the processed food, creating new labels, and making new products that they could market. Nothing became healthier.
• 50% of school cafe's have contracts with major soda and fast food companies
• Processed food industry's banned together so the FCC couldn't ban marketing of their junk food to children. From 2008-2010 children's exposure to junk food ads increased 60%. It's been shown that kids as young as 2 years old begin to recognize brands. And which brands do you think they learn first? Coke and McDonalds! 

What are we going to do about this when right now eating healthy is like swimming upstream? It's actually cheaper to eat whole foods and veggies than it is to eat fast food, contrary to popular belief and what our advertisers would like us to believe. But whose going to choose healthy food when junk food is everywhere we turn?

As far as I'm concerned, if you're upset with the way our government is functioning right now, (and if you're not, you're in a sugar coma), one of the most radical things you can do to fight back is to take control of your diet and say NO to the processed and packaged food industry. Say No to consuming junk food and fast food.

We don't need to put blame on ourselves and beat ourselves up about willpower. It's not completely our fault, the cards are currently stacked against us when it comes to being healthy and getting educated about health care. But we can choose to take action against this detestable act of terrorism on our people by our own government.

A Nutritional balancing program allows people to get the vital minerals and vitamins they need through supplements. When the body gets what it really wants, it naturally begins to feel energized and happy. This is proven to decrease sugar cravings. It's the only real solution I see right now that can help people stop their sugar and food addictions without the need for incredible willpower and excessive exercise. Now we just need to figure out a way to get all the right vitamin and mineral supplements to everyone in the country for low cost.

In the meantime, spread the word about the Fed Up Documentary and start to taking steps towards reclaiming the health and vitality of you and your family. Please help your children by teaching them proper nutrition, put them on a kelp supplement at the very least to get them the minerals they need. Start introducing whole food snacks. Begin to change your perspective of what food is. Understand that 80% of what you see in grocery stores is not food our body wants. We need your kids to reach their full potential and be the super hero's they were designed to be. We need them healthy to create a brighter future. Back to whole foods we must go!